Dreaming Gerbils???

This blog is going to be a story. Hope you enjoy the memory just as much as I do.

So, the other day I was sitting at my desk just goofing around on the computer and just out of nowhere I started hearing this squeaking noise. I thought to myself okay I'm just hearing birds and stuff outside, since I do live in town there could be all kinds of things that could make that noise. Well this noise seem to not stop like most noises do after a minute or so and it appeared to be close. So me being my nosy self I decided to further investigate. I even went to the extreme and walked outside. Well to shorten this story, it was my gerbil. I crept up on him and noticed he was twitching like he was having a dream. I wish I would have recorded it. He was so cute. I wonder what he was thinking.... Escape? Love? who knows? I just thought I would that cute little story with you. He is so adorable, this is a picture of him. I hope that you are having a good day and weekend.

With Love,
Nikki

Questionable Achievement

Many Americans, or shall I say people in general have an unexplainable reason to see goal as highly unachievable. These are some reasons as to why:

Setting intangibles goals

If they are not tangible then you will not be able to visualize yourself achieving them. Visualizing is an important factor to consider when creating these goals.

Shortage of Accountability

We need to hold ourselves accountable for results. After all we are the ones who set the goals.

Missing the “baby steps”

The middle steps are just as important as the big steps. Start small to reach for the big so to speak.

Good support system

We feed off the energy that is around us. Use it to your advantage. You might even encourage someone else to create and achieve their own goals.

Inability to commit

With goals brings commitment. In order to say you have “completed/achieved” something it actually needs to be COMPLETED. That means sticking with it through the good and the bad. It make it that much better in the end.

Leaving room for improvement and/or adjustment

Life is full of change and confusion. Sometimes things don’t go exactly as planned. That’s what leaving room would leave you willing to make changes in order to stay on track.

Mind, body and soul isn’t involved

We have emotions. Many people decide on a goal but never make it an important factor. If we put our heart into goals they will be achieved without a doubt.



So to tie this all together…. We need goals in life in order to become that person we have dreamt of becoming. I know in my mind that everyone is capable of becoming that person. It’s a matter of whether you WANT to do it is the question I asking. So do you WANT to do it? Then what are you waiting on? Please I encourage you, make yourself happy on the inside and on the outside if that’s the case. Everyone deserves to be happy and not feel guilty or conscious… I hope you all have a wonderful and goal fulfilling day. Just remember start small to make it to the big!

Abuse-Suicide-Death Not taken seriously...

http://www.secretregrets.com/

It saddens me everyday to go onto twitter and read these awful reveals. I just want to crawl into the deepest whole and shed at least one tear for all the innocent victims. Everyday a new story is added to this website. I wish the was something I could do. This website is a place where victims of abuse can go to anonymously announce regrets that they have in their life. Most of which is about the abuse that one suffers through or about suicidal thoughts. I just thought I would share this website with you so you could get a better understanding of what the world actually goes through and to express my deepest condolences to those who post.

LOVE ALWAYS,

Nikki <3

Phenomenal Woman

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Maya Angelou

“It is curious - curious that physical courage should be so common in the world, and moral courage so rare”- Mark Twain

It has been a few days since I have posted. So I decided I would share with you a story in which occurred this week. Lets begin. Shall we?
It was mid afternoon when I was in the kitchen washing a few dishes while my fiancé.. which by the way- his name is Chris.. well he was playing Xbox 360 while I was washing the dishes when out of no where I hear and LOUD crash followed by "What the fuck!?" So as I am automatically heading toward the sound Chris loudly announces: "Babe, I'm going to beat their ass!" So my motherly instinct kicked in and I told him wait I will get them. So as I am getting my kids- my kittens( lily and nitro) lily decides to jet toward the kitchen. Which was a bad choice considering Chris was in the hall way which led toward the kitchen. she managed to pass him and get in the kitchen. Out of anger he heads towards her. She "tries to escape but Chris decides he is not letting her and so he tries to block her with his feet... Well long story short- he kicks her... yeah I know what you are probably thinking... WTF?!... the way he describes it: I did not KICK her I LAUNCHED her... Yeah we had a bit of a confrontation... cause those are my babies and no there not going to be LAUNCHED! but he let them know he was sorry- fed them octopus... their new favorite food. So all ended well and my babies now know the xbox is a no no..

Mood disfunction

So... I know this sounds weird but I don't know what to write. Oh yeah. I guess I could tell you about how I think I have something wrong with my moods. Well not exactly. I just simply have too much time on my hands. I always seem to depress myself. I am not sure if this is possible but lets just go with it and say it is. Well anyway, yes I seem to some how manipulate my mind into thinking things that seem to depress me. It is never happy thoughts, just sad ones. Like for instance, today I started thinking about weather certain decisions I have made in the past were for the better. I have no possible reason for this besides I have to much time on my hands. I always seem to pull myself out of the depressed mood though. Which is a good thing. Its just weird that I do this to myself..... Thats it for tonight. Good night <3>